psychomagically

Wake up for life exercise:Think about a time in your life when you felt most alive.could be one or many moments that come into your mind.close you eyes, picture it, feel it in your body. engage your senses so that it feels like you are actually back there.breathe.Now, think about the past week - what moment stood out? what was the emotional max you felt?for me it was a moment in rehearsal for a play (don quijote) - it was intense-ish but felt like maybe 1/10th at best of my life maxes...This exercise woke me up to the fact that have been lying to myself for a long time.I have told myself next week I'll live, next month I'll live, next year...now I'm busy.now I have things to do.it's not the time yet...stop.stop!stop betraying life for petty causes.

things come to an endabruptly, spurring new beginningswill you take yourself for the fool that you areyou, without numberyou, without identitythe king cannot move and your dream is dead.yet this too, was a blessingthis too, was a soft lighttouch from sky, screaming from abovescreaming with everything that is lovethis time, you gothis time, you have finally heard.--my translation:take matters into your own handsor you shall wither and die.